I can't remember how old I was when I knew that I wanted to be a mother. I feel as though its just always something I knew I wanted and never questioned. I come from a family of three girls and I loved growing up with my sisters around me.
Its never been an option for us to be a one child family and baby number two has been on my mind recently even though Indie is only 6 months. I feel like a crazy person for even writing this but I have been thinking a lot recently about when we will have another baby.
There is 6 years between me and my oldest sister and 4 years between me and my other sister but we have always been really tight knit. The three of us are literally best friends, we talk or text every single day, laugh together and cry together about everything. I'm so grateful for the bond we have and would love if my children had the same.
Before I had Indie, I always thought I'd leave a few years in between each of my babies so I could really focus on and give them my whole undivided attention, but there is a big part of me now that would like to have all my children fairly close together in age so they can grow up close.
I don't know why its been playing on my mind recently but I'm a planner and like to try and organise as much as I can, even though we've learned that babies definitely don't come according to your agenda. We waited 3 years for our Indie girl and it scares me to think it could take that long again for baby number 2 to arrive.
Even though I definitely want more children, I don't know if I'm fully ready to go through pregnancy and labour again. The trauma and memory of my experience still scares me and I don't know if I could handle it again, knowing what I'm in for. I also worry that I won't be physically able to love my next baby as much as I love Indie. That instant bond you have and the love you experience when you meet your baby is so overwhelming and deep that I seriously question if it can happen multiple times. I know a mothers love has no limits though and every mum I've spoken to have said that as soon as they had their second or third, the feeling was always the same and just as strong.
I don't think there is such a thing as the "perfect age gap" but will accept that when its time, its time. I'm excited to have more children and for our family to grow but for now I will savour and soak up every minute its just Indie & I.
Did you have your babies close together or did you wait a while?
SLC x
I had my second baby four months ago and my little girl was three. Do far it has been perfect for me! My little girl is at morning nursery so i get time with my little boy and she is so so helpful! And she also gets the alone time she needs at nursery. Oh and dont let your first labour exp put you off...my daughter took 28 hours, an epidural, an inducement half way through and was ventouse. Was in hospital for four days. My son took less than two hours on only gas and air and i was home the same day! I was still in shock a week later haha! And i know you know it deep down but love goes a long way and the sibling bond is just like nothing else!x
ReplyDeleteThats so lovely! Sounds like a pretty perfect age gap too. Your labour sounds very similar to mine so hopefully I'll be as lucky with my second! x
DeleteI've got 3 girls (4,2 and 7 months), it is hard work but so lovely. They are all girls so the argue and fight a lot! And going places is tricky, there's 22 months between my eldest and second, then between second and third 18 months. I think the only main down side to having them so close is you miss out on certain things, I hardly have time just me and the baby so I don't get to enjoy the baby stage as much, my eldest is at nursery and starts school September and middle child has just started nursery so I now have 3 hours a week with my youngest which I treasure. Seeing them all play together knowing they will always have a best friend to play with makes it all worth it xx
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