21 days in

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Our beautiful baby girl is now 3 weeks old!

Bringing her into the world was one of the most difficult things I have ever experienced, but I'll save my birth story for another post (if I decide to write about it... I'm still undecided whether or not I want to yet... thoughts?)

But even though the labour was long and hard, it now seems like a breeze in comparison to the days that have followed her birth.

No one told me what having a baby was really like. No one warned me about all the tears that come from no where, the emotions and hormones that wash over you like a tidal wave, or how in love and obsessed you feel with your new baby. People told me how life changing it was, but no one really told me what it was ACTUALLY going to be like.

If you're like me and have just had a baby then I'm sure you'll be able to relate to this post, or if you're about to have a baby then I hope this helps and prepares you for whats to come. Obviously I'm no expert (hello... i've only been doing this for a few weeks. I know nothing, actually) but I can share what my experience has been like.

Its hard...

Really hard.

But so worth it. Yes, this stage is all give, give, give but as soon as your baby looks into your eyes or smirks in their sleep, your tears instantly dry up and you fall deeper in love with them. Indie is without a doubt the best thing that has ever happened to Josh and I and we thank God everyday for her. I can't imagine life without her and don't know how we lived before she arrived. She is just perfect and I'm utterly obsessed with her.

BUT (and thats a big but) motherhood is no easy feat. Between feeling completely exhausted and totally malnourished (whats a meal?!), you find this inner strength to make it through the screaming episodes and explosive nappies that somehow end up all over you. 

All of a sudden your life is no longer your own. I'm ashamed to admit this but I used to roll my eyes so hard when I'd hear new mums talk about how they miss things like showering and getting ready at their leisure, or complain about how messy their houses were. I used to wonder how they couldn't find 10 minutes here and there to get dressed or wash up, but let me tell you... its IMPOSSIBLE to get anything done in these early days. I apologise to every single women I secretly judged who told me they couldn't do much with a newborn. I totally get it now. And I feel so silly for thinking I'd be able to juggle it all and have it together as soon as I brought her home. I honestly thought I'd be able to continue life as normal, only with a baby in my arms. What an idiot, right?

There are so many things I miss about life before a baby, but there are millions of things I can't wait for now that I have a baby. Life is so much richer and now all of a sudden I have so much to loose. She is our absolute world. 

So getting ready may be a thing of the past (showers and makeup are so overrated anyway!) but staying in my pyjamas all day and snuggling my sweet baby girl to sleep is my new gig and I'm loving it. Yes, its SO HARD and I cry most days because I feel so overwhelmed and under qualified, but she is everything I have ever wanted and more. 

So for you mamas-to-be out there, expect it to turn your world upside down, expect to cry every few hours, and GIVE YOURSELF A BREAK. Nothing worth having comes easy and babies are definitely here to prove that.

SLC x

*Thanks Wild Geese London for this gorgeous pyjama set. Wearing nice PJ's definitely makes not getting dressed that little bit more acceptable. Check out their website HERE. I can't wait for their AW16 to launch!