Me time.

I don't tend to enjoy my own company so would much rather spend time with the people I love. Having good company and enjoyable conversation with people is one of my many favourite things. 

So when josh goes away for a few days at a time for work (cue the separation anxiety) I have to mentally prepare myself days in advance.

I know what you're thinking. A few days? That's it? How pathetic. People go weeks and even months without seeing to their other half. But it's not pathetic to me. I shared a room with my two best friends my whole life so it's hard for me to sleep in an empty house all by myself even for a few measly days. 

I'm thankful that josh doesn't go away for work very often but it still makes me anxious when he does. I was alone for 3 days last week and it's the same this week but I think I found out the secret to making it easier for me to "cope". I realised that I had to give myself something to look forward to each day while he's gone. Last week I made a point to have some "me time" each night he was gone which involved bubble baths, face masks and painting my nails a different colour every day. Modern Family and Haagan Dazs got me through the night!

This week because it's half term and I have no work or school (and no money to take a train back to Edinburgh for a few days) so I have made plans to do something every day to keep my mind occupied. I've realised how important it is to stay busy and not wallow in self pity. Because at the end of the day, he'll be back before I know it and there is no better feeling than being back together.

So from now on I'm not going to look at being by myself as being alone. I'm calling it "me time".

Shelley xx